Good evening again! Firstly, Em's new plodding total for Monday now stands @ 3447 (so presumably I'll have hit 3.5 grand before the night's out) and secondly, Joni's devotional topic's 'Timeless Moments' but thirdly and way most importantly, I'm really still owed FORTY MINUTES online after I let PIG mum gleefully force poor Ela on one set of those FitMi exercises for her!! Anyways, events for today?
- How odd... sleep wouldn't come last night? I actually used the pot :P for one tinkle just after midnight before finally falling asleep!
- Following another pot :P trip after the Sun had risen, I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- Daddy Bear and I happily cuddle and snore, me waking again for the pot :P around 9am just before PIG mum begins her daily noisy a-THUMPING around upstairs. Soon, she's let herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help exceedingly slightly with only the tops before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
- PIG mum returns to finish with absolutely nothing bar Elf's AFO straps and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth. That done, I sit over the loo for one tinkle, wash and dry Era then walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- Breakfast's one bowl of plain porridge with one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast very lightly spread with avocado and hopefully sprinkled with some salt, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I
spent another ten minutes continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the
saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's
exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He
has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having
a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's
dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh*
He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live
the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only
deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that
nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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