good afternoon! Firstly, today I've been hard @ work plodding 3004 steps (ha, I'm just over three grand XD); secondly, john Piper's daily devotional topic from last night's 'Our Weakness Reveals His Worth'; thirdly, TWFT topic's "Experiencing God's Presence Each Day" and fourthly, Our Daily Bread's devotional topic's 'Walking With Integrity' but fifthly and way most importantly, I'm really still owed ONE HOUR and FOUR MINUTES online after showering!! Anyways, events for today?
- Have forgotten what time nature called last night but after the first daylight pot :P trip I did the exercises Winnie taught me to prevent further back pain then I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- PIG mum beginning are noisy a-THUMPING around upstairs wakes me for another pot :P trip; soon, she's let herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me exceedingly slightly with absolutely nothing bar the bra strap and laying the tops out before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after immediately struggling into the tops then giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
- PIG mum comes back to finish with absolutely nothing bar Elf's AFO straps and both laces before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth. That done, I sit over the loo for one tinkle, wash and dry Era then walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- Breakfast is one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast very lightly spread with avocado and hopefully very lightly sprinkled with some salt, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing my
mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get
through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the
cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that
I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart
from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God
would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so
why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve?
Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He
just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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