Heylo again and please excuse the first post; you know I still get too excited whenever I get online before midday. XD Firstly, today I've been hard @ work plodding only 388 steps (since obviously, I've not left the house yet); secondly, John Piper's daily devotional topic from last night's "God isn't Gloomy"; thirdly, TWFT topic's 'Preparation For Parenting' and fourthly, Our Daily Bread's devotional topic's 'Saying Yes By Faith' but fifthly and way most importantly, I'm really still owed ONE HOUR and TWENTY-NINE MINUTES online after I get home with PIG mum!! Anyways, events for today?
- Nature called once around 1:30am but then I slept so soundly I didn't wake again for the pot :P till 8:45am, when noisy PIG mum started her a-THUMPING around upstairs! After another pot :P trip, I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- PIG mum soon lets herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me exceedingly slightly with not only the bra strap but the tee (since dearest dad's @ home) before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first. Oh, and my monthlies arrived~
- PIG mum comes back to finish with only Elf's AFO straps and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth. Oh, the new electric toothbrush's way cool and very sensitive: I just press the button gently and it'll start whirring!
- Teeth brushed, I walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting him push me over.
- Breakfast is one bowl of Minus :P with one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing
my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me
get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind
the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day
whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him,
despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good
attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase
'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent
life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of
Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets
to live?? *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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