Tuesday, July 3, 2012

tuesday post 95d

one final good evening! em's final, final plodding total for tuesday now stands @ 5713. righteo, final, final events for tonight?
~you know how you can take one little fish of soya sauce for your sushi? well, carol squirted HALF of the soya sauce out before giving the other half to me! "such waste!" i gasped @ her, "what the blazes did you do that for?!" her reply? "your mother always the same." *sigh* anyways, i also drank one mug of tea, white and two, 'incorrectly'.
-after i finishes eating, i only had time to read for just over ten minutes. :( PIG mum's new diabolical showering regime for me really sucks. ><
-and carol only massaged poor ela for twenty-five minutes today, coz she had to allow time for me to struggle with putting on my jumper. :( hopefully, PIG mum'll remember to massage ela back for five minutes tonight. :(
-PIG mum's also taught carol to force me dak and un-dak myself. :( i stayed there for two tinkles, also leaning briefly against the side rail and asking percy please to help me through tonight.
-carol's back tomorrow, and won't be having dinner coz she had a huge lunch.
-i tootled briefly online until PIG mum came downstairs to gleefully force me on a huge range of exercises all the way till 8:20pm! ><
-dinner tonight: rice, lotsa yummy broccoli, some soup carrot and potato, one incredibly chewy small mushroom and one wee chunk of soup beef. dinner was spooned down with one bowl of tomato, vegetable, potato and onion soup, then i slowly and safely returned online.
-at 9:15pm, i went slowly and safely once more to the loo. i'm really struggling here, everytime i'm walking i sense that god's trying to push me over; everytime PIG mum's gleefully forcing poor ela to do all these stupid exercises for her, i feel god's jeering @ me, "you're a failure, there's no way you can do it." PIG mum tells me that it's satan trying to attack me, and not god, but then i'm just confused because surely god's just as much to blame coz he's allowing it to happen? i dunno ... if you read this, can you please pray for me? for me to rise above god's hatred, or if satan's really the mastermind behind all this, that he leave me the bloody hell alone?! ><
-toms: mid-morning torture session with vincent the bloody physio, then aunty wendy's coming to mind me for three hours. PIG mum's going to plaza to meet aunty peggy. in the arvo, i've gotta complete my writers' group homework, "the first time..." and carol's coming in the arvo to watch me shower. most exciting, it's the ORIGIN DECIDER toms night! GO THE MIGHTY MAROONS!!! righteo, hope everyone has a smashing day toms!
cheers,
em. ^^

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