Heylo again, good evening and potentially one final greeting for tonight! Em’s potential final, final plodding total for Thursday now stands @ exactly 2400. righteo, potential final, final events for Thursday?
- Success; PIG mum even helped me slightly with a bra coz dearest dad hadn’t been to kiss me goodbye yet~
After I gave myself fifteen more minutes, I got myself mostly kitted. I also started a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
PIG mum came back to help with Elf’s AFO and my laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE L me to walk over to the bathroom to brush teeth 9poor Ela). Afterwards, I sat over the loo for one tinkle, also leaning fully against the side rail and continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He conned the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- After washing and drying Era, I walked myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table for breakfast, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
Breakfast was about one bowl of plain porridge with one chunk of plain (unbuttered) bread torn into it, one full mug of water, all my usual drugs :P and one small half-mouthful of milk. Over breakfast, I also continue continue my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He conned the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independentlife that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- After breakfast, I let PIG mum glee – argh, fingers crossed I can brb, else hope everyone has a smashing end to the week toms!
Cheers,
Em. ^^
P.S. I’m still owed FORTY -SIX MINUTES online!!! >< *sigh*
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