Thursday Post 365

 Good afternoon! Firstly, today I've been hard @ work plodding 2031 steps (ha, I'm just over two thousand steps XD); secondly,  John Piper's devotional topic from last night's 'Faith Expels  Guilt, Grief And Fear'; thirdly, TWFT topic's 'Dealing With Lonliness (2)' and fourthly, Our Daily Bread's devotional topic's 'Personal Responsibility' but fifthly and way most importantly, I'm really still owed ONE HOUR and TWENTY-ONE MINUTES after Ornella leaves and PIG mum feeds me some arvo tea!! Anyways, events for today?

• Yay, 3rd consecutive awesome sleep last night! Nature didn't call until 7:25am (I bet 'twas CODA ringing and saying Karina couldn't come XD) and after one pot :P trip, I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
• Sure enough, PIG mum comes down to hit me with the eye goo and say yes, Karina can't come but they've not found anyone who can yet!  o_O She helps fractionally with the bra  strap and  tee  (only coz dearest dad's still home) before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
• PIG mum comes back to help with absolutely nothing bar Elf's AFO and both laces, after which I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to  the bathroom to brush teeth.  That done, I sit over the loo for one tinkle, wash and dry Era and then walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting him push me over. While I'm making my cautious way out, PIG mum intercepts me to say Jayden found someone (but neither he nor she remembers her name) to take me to GCCW but she can't come till 9:30am, hence why once seated @  the gobbling :P table I quickly email all the GCCW people saying I'm still coming but just late so remember to leave me at least three bikkies for morning tea! XD

• Breakfast was one bowl of plain porridge with one slice of dry (unbuttered) bread, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing  on  my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
• After breakfast, I walk myself slowly and safely back to the loo, again rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting him push me over. There, I do a stinky unspeakable, also leaning fully against the side rail and finishing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel. Remember, however the cruel and unfaithful God tries to make my day bad for me, I won't let that affect me because my good day has NOTHING to do with Him; I'm perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him. See, my good day's dependent on my own good attitude!
• After washing and drying Era, I sit on the chair and wait for the carer to arrive.
• Phew! Ornella arrives late but explains she was stuck in traffic; for some reason, PIG mum goes through EVERY ITEM on the shopping list with her before letting us leave?
  Cheers,
  Em. ^^