Sunday Post 162

Good afternoon! Firstly, today I’ve been hard @ work plodding 2344 steps; secondly, TWFT topic’s ‘Healthy Confrontation (3)’ and thirdly, the spam count for the weekend’s twelve. Righteo, events for today?

-        I used the pot :P once last night around 2:30am. Whilst tinkling away, I was almost overwhelmed by the feeling of resentment I have against the cruel and unfaithful God. Is resentment sin?

~ Nature called again around 7am, when PIG mum started a-THUMPING around upstairs. I didn’t fall back asleep after that, but just cuddled Daddy Bear and counted some numbers.

- this morning, when PIG mum came to hit me with the eye goo and help me slightly with a bra, she also helped me with a tee coz dearest dad hadn’t come to kiss me goodbye yet. After giving myself fifteen more minutes, I got myself mostly independently kitted.

- After PIG mum came and helped with Elf’s AFO and both shoelaces (only coz she doesn’t wanna be late for church; you can bet I’ll be tying them myself after I shower later), I let her gleefully FORCE L me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth 9poor Ela). Afterwards, I sat over the loo for two tinkles, also leaning fully against the side rail and starting a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*

- That done, I washed and dried Era then walked myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.

- Breakfast was one bowl of plain porridge with some chunky bread torn into it, one full mug of water and all my usual drugs. :P Over breakfast, I also continued my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing  on  my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He conned the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*

- After breakfast, I let PIG mum gleefully FORCE L me to walk out to the 4WD and she tootled us off to church. Of course, she gleefully forced me to buckle my own seatbelt all day and as usual, she wouldn’t lemme listen to any music coz she ‘wants to prepare her heart to worship God’, whatever that means. Didn’t bother me; I just spent the short trip finishing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel. Remember, however the cruel and unfaithful God tries to make my day bad for me, I won't let that affect me because my good day has NOTHING to do with Him; I'm perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him. See, my good day's dependent on my own good attitude!

- At the little house, PIG mum took me once to the loo then left me sitting in class. The only reason I suspect she didn’t bolt off to join the Cantonese service like she usually does is because Samuel had arrived and mother wanted to yap @ him. XD

- At class today, we went through First Kings chapter twelve.

- After class, everyone left quickly and ‘twas just me sitting and waiting for PIG mum. Guess she was just gossipping to all the other church aunties and couldn’t be bothered to come pick me up yet. XD

- When she does finally arrive, I use the loo once more then let her gleefully FORCE L me to walk all the way over to the main hall for English service, where she then bolts off for her very informal ‘fellowship’ with the other church aunties who don’t attend Bible study either; they just have a drink together and gossip~

- Today, Pole sits beside me, telling me that josh isn’t @ church today coz they’re getting their kitchen renovated and the electrician’s over @ their place.

- Phew, I get to remain seated for worship today~ I sing everything I knw, plus the harmony for two songs, but like every other week, mean absolutely NOTHING. ><

- Speaker today’s Pastor Chris, continuing his sermon series from Daniel. Lol, I thought I was lazy, shortening the king’s name to just ‘Nebu’ but turns out that Pastor Chris is even worse: “Neb’! XD

- After service, I sit over the loo once more for two tinkles then PIG mum tootles me home for lunch. I’m understandably pissed: dad already wouldn’t take us out for dinner come Thursday even though I, unlike mother, who found three awesome aunties to shout her out for lunch on Wednesday, have had lunch @ home everyday and I was getting ready to content myself with LESS than one Happy Meal for lunch (note that I’m turning THIRTY next year, not three) when PIG mum just tootles us home for lunch, coz dad reheated the leftover pizza the men’s group had for dinner last night! Lol, he made a big show of giving me three slices, but if you looked to see how miniscule those slices were, you’d realise they barely amounted to even one slice! The garlib bread and mug of iced lemon tea was nice, though~

- once lunch was finished, I went out to kiss dad goodbye (he was off to play baddy) then used the loo once for two tinkles before walking myself slowly and safely online, again rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming atred and not letting Him push me over.

- Toms: can’t remember … do I have MSG?? XD

- I do know I’ve got a torture session with Vincent the physio in the arvo and that Kim’s coming to mind me from 4pm till 6pm; fingers crossed I’ll get to read for one hour again!

So hopefully bbl, else hope everyone has a smashing week ahead!

Cheers,

Em. ^^