Good afternoon! Firstly, today I’ve been hard @ work
plodding 2150 steps; secondly, TWFT topic’s ‘Bible Study: Make It Personal’ and
thirdly, the spam count for the weekend’s fourteen. Anyways, events for today?
~ Yay, second consecutive awesome sleep last night! Nature
did call while ‘twas still pitch black, but I asked her to please wait while I
counted to 500. after 500, I was still awake, but I told my bladder, “Lemme
silently sing half my original second-favourite song; if I’nm still awake after
that, then I’ll go.” Turns out I was still awake, but a third time I told my
bladder, “Alright, I promise I’ll go if I’m still awake after I finish silently
singing this song.” Phew, I fell back asleep, and didn’t wake till 6:50am ~
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After one pot :P trip, I cuddled Daddy Bear and tried
to fall back asleep again. Didn’t quite succeed, but that was okay coz when PIG
mum came inside my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me slightly with a
bra (sheesh, ‘twas only like 7:30am /7:45am and she was already bitching about what
I wasn’t doing correctly enough for her! ><) she also helped me put a tee
on, coz dearest dad hadn’t left yet.
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I gave myself fifteen more minutes then got myself
mostly independently kitted, also slowly, softly but most hatefully singing my
newest second-favourite song about 1/5 of the way through, closing my left eye
for all the important numbers.
PIG mum came back to help with Elf’s AFO and both laces,
only coz she didn’t wanna be late for church service @ 9am. That done, I let
her gleefully FORCE L me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth
(poor Ela). Afterwards, I sat over the loo for two tinkles, also leaning fully
against the side rail and starting a mostly silent chat to Percy the
saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance,
strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the
pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided
that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's
taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's
happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to
grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
After washing and drying Era, I walked myself slowly and safely
out to the gobbling :P table for breakfast, rising above the cruel and
unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
Breakfast was one bowl of porridge with a lil toast torn into it, one full mug
of water, all my usual drugs :P and one small half-mouthful of milk. Over
breakfast, I also continued continued my mostly silent chat to Percy the
saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's
exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He
has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly
capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him,
because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would
remember that ... *sigh* He conned the phrase 'live and let live', so why the
heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair
enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme
live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
Breakfast finished, I let PIG mum gleefully FORCE L
me to walk to the 4WD and she tootled us off to church. As usual, she wouldn’t
lemme turn any music on coz she was ‘too busy preparing her heart to worship
God’ (whatever that means; how come she’s too busy to lemme listen to music but
not so busy she can’t yap @ me whilst driving?? XD) and of course, she
gleefully forced me to buckle my own seatbelt all day. For the car trip until
we reached the Logan Rd.
intersection, I told the cruel and unfaithful God how I most certainly wouldn’t
worship Him and for Him to please just bugger off and leave me alone if He
wasn’t gonna entirely heal me, then after the intersection I also finished my
mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel. Remember, however the cruel and
unfaithful God tries to make my day bad for me, I won't let that affect me
because my good day has NOTHING to do with Him; I'm perfectly capable of having
a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him. See, my good day's
dependent on my own good attitude!
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At the small house, PIG mum took me once to the loo
then raced off to join the Cantonese service, leaving me always the first @
class.
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Today we went through First Corinthians thirteen. After
class finished, everybody else left and I was left waiting for PIG mum to
finish yapping to all the church aunties and come to get me.
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After one loo trip, I let her gleefully FORCE L
me to walk all the way to the main hall for service. Yay, I got my usual spot~
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For worship today, I stayed seated, sang everything I knew
plus the harmony for three songs but like every other week, meant absolutely
NOTHING. >< *sigh*
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Speaker today was Pastor Chris; his sermon was from his
series about Daniel and was called sth like “The Writing On The Wall’.
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After service, I used the loo once then PIG mum tootled
me for lunch with dearest dad @ the local Maccas. Again. Argh, I’m turning
THIRTY next year but PIG mum STILL won’t lemme eat one WHOLE Happy Meal!!
>< *sigh* She gives @ least 1/3 of my chips to dad …
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After lunch, PIG mum tootled us home. I used the loo
once then walked myself slowly and safely online, again rising above the cruel
and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
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Toms: late morning appointment to see Uncle Tom the
Chinese herbalist for some acupuncture and left limb massage.
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Will doubtless return home and join dearest dad for
lunch.
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Early afternoon torture session with Vincent the
physio. ><
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Kim’s coming to mind me from 4pm till 6pm ; I look
forward to hearing all about her interstate trip last week and will hopefully
get to read for one happy hour!
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Righteo, hopefully bbl, else hope everyone has a
smashing week ahead!
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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