Heylo again and please excuse the first post; you know I still get too excited whenever I get to post before midday. XD Firstly, today I've been hard @ work plodding only 252 steps (since obviously, I've not left the house yet); secondly, John Piper's daily devotional topic from last night's "Don't Serve God"; thirdly, TWFT topic's 'The Right Attitude (1)' and fourthly, Our Daily Bread's devotional topic's 'Eyes To See' but fifthly and way most importantly, I'm really still owed ONE HOUR and TWENTY-EIGHT MINUTES online after shopping with dad!! Anyways, events for today?
- Lol, my awesome sleep streak ended @ 1:50am since I was too excited having made cocktail buns with PIG mum last night! Nature had already called twice before midnight but when I finally fell asleep my idiot bladder called me awake full @ 1:50am! XD
- Around 7:45am, I awake again for the pot :P, after which I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- Nature calls once more around 9am, shortly before PIG mum begins her daily a-THUMPING around upstairs. Soon, she's let herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help exceedingly slightly with absolutely nothing bar the bra strap and the tee before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
- PIG mum comes back to help only with Elf's AFO straps and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk to the bathroom and brush teeth. That done, I sit over the loo for one tinkle, wash and dry Era and then walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting him push me over.
- Breakfast's one of those cocktail buns I helped PIG mum make last night, one mug of warm Milo, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing
my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me
get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind
the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day
whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him,
despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good
attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase
'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent
life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of
Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets
to live?? *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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