Good morning! Tee hee, I'm really enjoying these Sunday mornings when I get to post before midday! XD Well, firstly, today I've only been hard @ work plodding 438 steps today (obviously, I haven't left the house yet!); secondly, TWFT topic's 'Dealing With Depression (3)' and thirdly, the spam count for the weekend's twenty-nine but fourthly and way most importantly, I'm still owed TWENTY-TWO MINUTES online when i get back home!! Anyways, events for today?
- Aww, my streak of awesome sleeps ended this morning @ 12:25/12:35am, when dearest dad walked around the house (presumably he'd finished watching some soccer match) and somehow i just SENSED that he was there! Dad was very considerate, though; not wearing any slippers, he was totally silent, but I just reckon it's so awesome that I could still somehow just SENSE him and wake up! XD Hopefully I'll start another streak of awesome sleeps straightaway~
- Anyways, nature called again around 6:20am, and after one pot :P trip, I spent the ten minutes till 6:30am starting a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- Nature called again about one hour later, when PIG mum started a-STOMPING around upstairs. Soon, she was inside my room, hitting with me some eye goo and helping me very slightly with not only a bra but a tee also, coz dearest dad hadn't left for church yet.
- After giving myself fifteen more minutes, I get myself mostly kitted. PIG mum comes back to help with Elf's AFO and both shoelaces, only because she doesn't wanna be late to the Canto church service @ 9am; I'm sure I'll be tying them myself when I shower later today.
- That all done, I let PIG mum gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom to brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for two tinkles, also leaning fully against the side rail and continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He conned the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- After washing and drying Era, I walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :p table for breakfast, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God's near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- Breakfast's one bowl of porridge with one chunk of plain bread torn into it, one full mug of water, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of milk that I poured for myself coz PIG mum was feeling unhelpful and wouldn't pour for me.
- Afterwards, I walked myself slowly and safely online, again rising above the cruel and unfaithful God's near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- At 9:40am, I took myself once slowly and safely to the loo for one tinkle and back, always rising above the cruel and unfaithful God's near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- Nature randomly called again @ 10:07am; I took myself once more slowly and safely to the loo for one tinkle and back, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God's near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- Just waiting for PIG mum now to come take me to ESS. Hopefully I'll find someone who can kindly walk behind me to my normal seat, coz PIG mum's always too eager to join the other aunties in their very informal 'fellowship' (she calls their gathering that, only they don't read the Bible together/anything like that; I'm pretty sure they just drink coffee and gossip) to bother waiting for me to get outa the loo and get to my usual seat. Sometimes I reckon she's just waiting to hear that I fell while walking over by my lonesome so she can jeer @me; thankfully, thus far I've always found someone who can walk behind me to my usual seat, phew~
- Fingers crossed that PIG mum'll lemme have lunch out with other church peoples afterwards!
- Don't have any plans for the arvo; may just spend another lonely one staring @ the computer until PIG mum tumbles down from pigland and orders that I take a shower.
- Toms: late morning appointment to see Uncle Tom the Chinese herbalist for some left limb massage and acupuncture.
- Will doubtless return home to have lunch with dearest dad~
- Joy: I won't haveta see Vincent the physio for my weekly torture session coz he's finally gone back to Hong Kong!
- And Kim's coming to mind me from 4pm till 6pm. I don't really mind if she orders me to practise tying shoelaces, but I hope I'll get to read for another hour today and that she lets me drink white tea with two sugars! Anyways, hopefully bbl, else wishing everyone a smashing week ahead!
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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