Heylo again and please excuse the first post; you know I just get too excited wh4never I get the chance to poet before midday. XD Firstly, today I've been hard @ work plodding only 490 steps (coz obviously, I've not left the house yet); secondly, John Piper's devotional topic from last night's 'Radical Recompense'; thirdly, TWFT topic's 'The Answer Is: Gratitude' and fourthly, the spam count for the week's 105 (only the third time this year it's passed 100 for the week, lol) but fifthly and way most importantly, IU'm really still owed THIRTY MINonline afterwards!! Anyways, events for today?
- Woo hoo, 12TH consecutive awesome sleep last night! Nature didn't call until the noisy garbage truck THUNDERED down our road to start tipping bins @ 6:10am, and after one pot :P trip I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- After that, Uber and I happily cuddle and snore, me waking hourly for the pot :P until PIG mum lets herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me exceedingly slightly with not just the bra strap but the tee (since dearest dad's @ home) before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
- PIG mum comes back to help with absolutely nothing bar Elf's AFO straps and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom to brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for only one tinkle, coming out when I realise I feel like doing a stinky unspeakable.
- After pouring myself one mug of water, breakfast is one bowl of plain porridge with one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast, smeared with avocado and sprinkled with a little salt, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- Breakfast finished, I walk myself slowly and safely to the loo, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s
near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over. There, I do a stinky unspeakable, also leaning fully against
the side rail and spend minutes finishing my mostly silent chat to
Percy the saint/angel. Remember, however the cruel and unfaithful God tries to
make my day bad for me, I won't let that affect me because my good day has NO
- After washing and drying Era, I walk myself slowly and safely online, again rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s
near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over. PIG mum goes out swimming, while dearest dad's doing sth in the garage.
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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