Heylo again and potentially one final greeting for tonight! Em's potential final, final plodding total for Sunday now stands @ 3796. Righteo, take two: potential final, final events for today?
- Aww, nature ended my four night awesome sleep streak last night @ 12:45am; guess I'll not achieve twenty-five weeks of one straight week of awesome sleeps this year ... *disappointed sigh*
- Nature called again when noisy PIG mum woke me with her noisy a-THUMPING around upstairs; after another pot :P trip I fell back asleep right away since I knew with certainity that PIG mum would get noisy again one hour later!
- Like clockwork, one hour later noisy PIG mum a-THUMPS back upstairs; that's my wakeup call to use the pot :P a third time, before I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- PIG mum lets herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me exceedingly slightly with only the bra strap and also the tee (because dearest dad's @ home) before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
- After PIG mum comes back and finishes off with absolutely nothing bar Elf's AFO straps and both laces, I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for only one tinkle, coming out when I realised I felt like doing a stinky unspeakable.
- Breakfast is one slice of toast smeared with a little butter and strawberry jam, one bowl of plain porridge, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing my
mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get
through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the
cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day
whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him,
despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good
attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase
'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent
life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of
Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets
to live?? *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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