Heylo again and good evening! Firstly, Em’s new plodding total for Monday now stands
@ 1723 but secondly and way more importantly, I’m still owed ONE
HOUR and TWO MINUTES online after dinner tonight! Anyways, events for today?
~Yay, awesome sleep last night! Nature didn’t call until 7:20am , and after one pot :P trip I spent the
ten minutes till 7:30am having a
mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with
the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today
with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering
for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It
doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not
through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess
whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. ><
*sigh*
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After dearest dad came to kiss me goodbye before
leaving for work, Daddy Bear and I cuddled and snored for about another hour. I
used the pot :P once more, and after PIG mum came into my room to hit me with
the eye goo and help me slightly with a bra, got myself mostly kitted after
giving myself fifteen more minutes. While I dressed myself, I also sang like
10% of my newest second-favourite song softly, slowly but most hatefully out
aloud, closing my left eye for all the important numbers.
PIG mum came back to help me with Elf’s AFO and laces, then
I let her gleefully FORCE L me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth
(poor Ela). Afterwards, I sat over the loo for two tinkles, also fully leaning
the side rail and continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel,
asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly
important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no
bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly
capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him,
because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would
remember that ... *sigh* He conned the phrase 'live and let live', so why the
heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair
enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme
live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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