Good afternoon! Firstly, today I’ve only been hard @ work
plodding 812 steps (haven’t left the house today, see) and secondly, TWFT
topic’s ‘Recovering From Divorce (2)’. Anyways, events for today?
~ I used the pot :P once last night around 2am and once more around 7:20am before spending the ten minutes till 7:30am having a mostly silent chat to Percy the
saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance,
strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the
pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided
that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but
she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough
she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got
to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- After PIG mum came and hit me with the eye goo before
leaving for work, i spent the next ten minutes continuing my mostly silent chat
to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay.
I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful
God that He has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly
capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him,
because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would
remember that ... *sigh* He conned the phrase 'live and let live', so why the
heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair
enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme
live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- For some reason, dad comes in, and chucks a completely
random cow @ me! >< Oh well, just means I sing myself back to sleep
instead of counting.
- Nature called again around 9am .
Good timing, though: after I use the pot :P again, dad turns on some noisy
machinery inside the garage! XD
- But here’s a testament to my sleeping skills: I manage to
fall back asleep despite the noise. XD
- Besta arrives ten minutes early but still gives me fifteen
more minutes of snooze time with Daddy Bear before she gets me kitted for
today. I walk over to the bathroom to brush teeth (thanks to Besta who squirts
me some toothpaste; Ela enjoys her once weekly reprieve) then sit over the loo
and do a stinky unspeakable, after drinking the mug of water Besta kindly
brings me. Whilst over the loo, I also lean fully against the side rail and
finish my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel. Remember, however the
cruel and unfaithful God tries to make my day bad for me, I won't let that
affect me because my good day has NOTHING to do with Him; I'm perfectly capable
of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him. See, my good
day's dependent on my own good attitude!
- After washing and drying Era, I head out to the gobbling
:P table for breakfast. Thanks to dearest dad who’s left me half a slice of egg
and very thinly cyt Spam ham; also thanks to Besta who’s cooked the bread yummy
and added half a slice of cheese for me. I also enjoy my first weekly mug of
white tea, sweetened with two teaspoonfuls of sugar, and give the teabag a
suck. :P
- I then happily read my book club novel for forty-five
minutes, while Besta gently massages Ela and watches The Morning Show.
- At midday , Besta
takes me to the loo for one tinkle and makes me one mug of warm Milo .
Back @ the gobbling :P table, I try to reach both HK aunties, but neither
answer; maybe they’ve gone out together? Instead, I happily continue reading
for another forty-five minutes, reaching page 200 @ 12:50pm .
- Before she leaves, Besta takes me once more to the loo for
two tinkles. She leaves me with one full yummy bowl of fried rice for lunch,
plus another mug of white tea, sweetened with two teaspoonfuls of sugar
(another teabag I can suck. XD)
- PIG mum returns home while I’m munching lunch. She heads
upstairs to shower and when I’m finished eating, I walk myself slowly and
safely online, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming
hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- At 1:55pm, I use the loo once more again for two tinkles,
walking myself there and back slowly and safely, again rising above the cruel
and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- Kim’s coming to mind me from 4pm
till 6pm today.
- Toms: just church, nothing special. Actually, Sunday sports
is on afterwards … wonder if PIG mum’ll lemme attend?
- Anyways, hopefully bbl tonight, else hope to see everyone
@ church toms!
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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