Thursday Post 290

Good afternoon! Firstly, today I’ve been hard @ work plodding … WTF, Wally stopped giving me steps after I left the house! >< Well, TWFT topic’s ‘Conviction and Credibility (2)’ but thirdly and way most importantly, I’m still owed FORTY-SIX MINUTES online after I let PIG mum back inside the house!! Anyways, events for today?

• For my first game of Bejeweled ending @ 2:36pm, I lasted 6:47. Now, lemme finish one more game lasting between five and six minutes, and I’ll willingly hit the sack tonight. XD

Yay, 4^th consecutive awesome sleep last night! Like yesterday, nature didn’t call until 6:50am and after one pot :P trip I spent the ten minutes till 7:00am beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*

• Didn’t fall back asleep again before Kim arrived @ 7am, but she gave me fifteen more minutes before helping me get kitted for today..
• Now @ 3:13pm I’ve finished another game of Bejeweled lasting 5:23. That’s today’s quotas satisfied, and I promise I’ll willingly hit the sack tonight. XD
• After easing my mouth splint out and brushing my front teeth, I walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.

Breakfast is some porridge with one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast torn into it, one full mug of water, all my usual drugs :P and half a small mouthful of milk. Thanks to Kim who turned Sunrise on for me to watch; over breakfast I I also spend ten minutes continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing  on  my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*

Cheers,

Em. ^^