Good afternoon! Firstly, today I've been hard @ work plodding 2720 steps; secondly, John Piper's daily devotional topic from last night's '"Forgiven For Jesus' Sake" ; thirdly, TWFT topic's 'There Are No Menial Jobs' and fourthly, the spam count for the weekend's already seventeen. Anyways, events for today?
- Yay, 2nd consecutive awesome sleep last night! Like yesterday, nature didn't call until 6:10am; after one pot :P trip, I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- One hour later, when noisy PIG mum goes a-THUMPING upstairs and gets changed for church, I wake to use the pot :P again. Soon, she's let herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me exceedingly slightly with only the bra strap and tee (because dearest dad's home), before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen minutes first. PIG mum comes back to help with absolutely nothing bar Elf's AFO straps and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for only one tinkle, coming out when I realise I feel likje doing a stinky unspeakable.
- After getting myself a spoon, breakfast is one bowl of plain porridge with one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast with a lil avocado and salt smeared over it, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, , I spent another ten minutes continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- Breakfast finished, I walk myself slowly and safely to the loo, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s
near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over. There, I do a stinky unspeakable, also leaning fully against
the side rail and spend minutes finishing my mostly silent chat to
Percy the saint/angel. Remember, however the cruel and unfaithful God tries to
make my day bad for me, I won't let that affect me because my good day has NO
- Fingers crossed I can bbl, since I'm still owed FORTY-NINE MINUTES online!!! *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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