Heylo again and please excuse the first post; you know I get too excited whenever I get the chance to post online before midday. XD Firstly, today I've only been hard @ work plodding 696 steps (but will hopefully leave the house later so should have a more comprehensive plodding total to enter afterwards); secondly, John Piper's daily devotional topic from last night's 'Delayed Deliverances' and thirdly, TWFT topic's 'Remember What You Used To Be Like? (1) but fourthly and way most importantly, I'm really still owed online for later!! Anyways, events for today?
- Woo hoo, 13TH consecutive awesome sleep last night! Nature didn't call until 6:10am and after one pot :P trip, I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- Then I had an INCREDIBLE snore and didn't wake again until dearest dad left for swimming around 9:45am! Immediately after he'd left, PIG mum barged inside my room and ordered me up; I could tell that she'd rolled outta bed the wrong way today and mentally braced myself for a difficult day @ her hands while I got myself mostly independently kitted ...
- PIG mum comes back to help with absolutely NOTHING bar Elf's AFO straps and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for only one tinkle, coming out when I realise I feel like doing a stinky unspeakable.
- After pouring myself one full mug of water, breakfast is one bowl of bird food (what Dr. Ku calls All-Bran XD), one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast with avocado smeared over it and a tiny shake of salt, all my usual drugs :P and that full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing my
mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get
through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the
cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day
whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him,
despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good
attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase
'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent
life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of
Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets
to live?? *sigh* 'Twas indeed a difficult day @ the hands of horrid PIG mum; she sat down opposite me and started lambasting me about how she did 98% of everything for me! I beg to differ: sure, she may have done the bra strap up for me, but I got the rest of myself mostly independently kitted; sure, she may have done Elf's AFO straps for me, but 'twas I who lifted the leg, held it up there in position while she placed the AFO under then bent knee and held the thigh in while she only did the straps up, sure, she prepared breakfast for me but 'twas me who attended to personal care (brush teeth, sit over loo) while she did that and walked myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s
near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- Breakfast finished, I walk myself slowly and safely online, again rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s
near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over. There, I note down that I've had to put the toilet lid down for PIG mum after doing a number two before actually sitting over the loo and doing it. There, I do a stinky unspeakable, also leaning fully against
the side rail and finishing my mostly silent chat to Percy the
saint/angel. Remember, however the cruel and unfaithful God tries to make my
day bad for me, I won't let that affect me because my good day has NO
- After washing and drying Era, I walk myself slowly and safely online, always rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s
near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
- PIG mum's just returned home from swimming and has gone upstairs to shower. Unfortunately, she didn't leave her snarky attitude @ the pool; the moment she came back inside, she was bitching @ poor dad about sth trivial/other. *sigh*
- I can hear dad turning the stove and microwave on; guess he's reheating leftovers for our lunch?
- Unsure where we'll head afterwards (if anywhere).
- Toms: it's the first GCCW for 2022! I've sent my homework to PIG mum; hopefully she'll remember to print it out for me.
- Even better: Karina and I will buy takeaway from Woka Warrigal and then crash the Mok residence for lunch!
- Karina will see me home and showered before leaving @ like 3:30.
- Anyways, hopefully bbl, else hope everyone's having a smashing week!
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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