Good afternoon!
Firstly, today I’ve been hard @ work plodding 1520 steps (ha, I’m just over 1.5
grand XD) and secondly, TWFT topic’s “What’s Your Ox-Goad?” but thirdly and way
most importantly, I’m still owed ONE HOUR and TWO MINUTES online after I let PIG
mum back inside!! Anyways, events for today?
Yay, 3rd
consecutive awesome sleep last night! Nature didn’t call until 6:40am , and after one pot :P trip I spent
the ten minutes till 6:50am beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him
please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I
need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the
satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can
be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me
through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy
and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my
teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- Ending @
- The teddies and I cuddle and snore for about another hour; PIG mum beginning her a-THUMPING around upstairs my wakeup call to use the pot :P again. Soon, she’s let herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me exceedingly slightly with not only the bra strap but the tee (because dearest dad hasn’t left for work yet) before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
PIG mum
comes back to help with Elf’s AFO and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE
L me to walk over to the bathroom to
brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for two tinkles, also
leaning fully against the side rail and continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel,
asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly
important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no
bearing on my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of
having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good
day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ...
*sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He
lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all
only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life
that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- Now @
- After washing and drying Era, I walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over. Breakfast is some plain porridge with one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast torn into it, one large full mug of water, all my usual drugs :P and one small mouthful of milk.
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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