Sunday, May 7, 2017

Monday Post 191

Good afternoon! Firstly, today I’ve been hard @ work plodding 1424 steps (lol, I’m positive if I can return online after Kim leaves I’ll have passed 1,5 grand XD) and secondly, TWFT topic’s ‘change Your Thinking, Change Your Life’ but thirdly and way most importantly, I’m still owed ONE HOUR and FIVE MINUTES online tonight after Kim leaves!! Anyways, events for today?
-        For my first game of Bejeweled ending @ 3:19pm, I lasted 6:55. Now, lemme play one more lasting in between five and six minutes, and I’ll be content to call it quits for today. XD
-        I used the pot :P once around 2:30am last night and once more around 6:45am, before immediately returning to happy snorings with Daddy Bear.
Waking again for the pot :P around one hour later, I then spent the ten minutes till 7:55am beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
-        After dearest dad kissed me bye and retucked the teddies and I back into bed before leaving for work, Daddy Bear and I continue our happy snorings, me waking again for the pot :P shortly before PIG mum starts a-THUMPING around upstairs.
-        Soon, she’s inside my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me very slightly with a bra before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
PIG mum comes back to help with Elf’s AFO and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE L me to walk over to the bathroom to brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit for two tinkles over the loo, also leaning fully against the side rail and continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing  on  my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
-        After washing and drying Era, I walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
Breakfast is one plain (no honey) Weet-Bix, some bird food (what Dr. Ku calls All-Bran XD) and some delicious Coco Pops Chex, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I also spend ten minutes finishing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel. Remember, however the cruel and unfaithful God tries to make my day bad for me, I won't let that affect me because my good day has NOTHING to do with Him; I'm perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him. See, my good day's dependent on my own good attitude!

-        This morning, Rachel from Kyabra came for an annual review @ 10:30am~ PIG mum was in her element, constantly belittling/disparaging me. *sigh*
-        Rachel took her leave @ midday, I walked her to the door then used the loo once for one tinkle before walking myself slowly and safely back to the gobbling :P table, again rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
-        While PIG mum whipped up lunch for us, I happily read the Eddings novel! I reached page 200 around 12:50am, BTW~
-        Lunch was one small half-bowl of PIG mum’s fried rice plus one mug of yummy chrysanthemum tea. Over lunch, we watched ABC’s midday news.
-        After lunch, I used the loo once more then PIG mum tootled me off for my weekly torture session with Vincent the physio.
-        Physio today: three/four attempts to stay seated, bimanual task of catching ball, stood several times to retrieve ball. Mostly, I was just cranky @ PIG mum for not asking Vincent to please help stretch Elf. *sigh*
-        Afterwards, PIG mum and I went to Calamvale Central. Our first stop was to the Discount Fruit Market to buy fresh fruit and vegies; our second, to Sushi Sushi where I bought a beef sukiyaki sushi roll for arvo tea and our third was to Woolies for more groceries. I was walking unfortunately with some pain by then, but bor it and suffered in silence. I’m not like PIG mum, see; she’s forever bitching that somehow only she struggles and suffers, also that only she suffers and struggles the most. Sometimes, I can’t help but think that ‘twas true, but I always take back that thought in the next breath coz I don’t want the cruel and unfaithful God to be as awful to her as He’s been to me. *sigh*
-        Back home, I used the loo once then walked myself slowly and safely online, always rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.
-        Kim’s coming to mind me from 4pm till 6pm today. Fingers crossed she’ll lemme outta shoelace tying practice, will lemme drink white tea with two sugars and lemme read for one whole hour but still get to watch the sports report!
-        Toms: late morning UQ physio with a new student!
-        Carol’s coming to mind me from 4pm then taking me out to Toastmasters afterwards, so fingers crossed PIG mum’ll lemme buy some dinner back home from Maccas; never mind that Happy Meals were what I ate @ least two DECADES ago!
-        Anyways, hopefully bbl, otherwise hope everyone has a smashing day toms!
Cheers,

Em. ^^

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