Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Monday Post 185

Good afternoon! Firstly, today I’ve been hard @ work plodding 3155 steps but unfortunately, the internet’s down and I won’t get access again until @ least Thursday! >< *sigh* Anyways, events for today?
- Yay, 4th consecutive awesome sleep last night! Nature didn’t call until 8:05am (my best for 2017, so far!) and after one pot :P trip, I spent the ten minutes until 8:15am beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- Daddy Bear, Juice and I continued snoring happily together, me waking for the pot :P once more when PIG mum starts a-THUMPING around upstairs. Shortly afterwards, she’s downstairs in my room to hit me with the eye goo and help me very slightly with a bra, before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I do after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
- PIG mum returns to help with Elf’s AFO and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE L me to walk over to the bathroom to brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit for two tinkles over the loo, also fully leaning against the side rail and continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing  on  my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*
- After washing and drying Era, I walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :P table, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.

Cheers,
Em. ^^


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