Good afternoon! Firstly, today I've been hard @ work plodding 2604 steps (ha, I'm over 2.5 grand XD); secondly, John Piper's devotional topic's 'Dirty Rags No More'; thirdly, TWFT topic's People-pleasing (2) ' and thirdly, the spam count for the weekend's already twenty-six. Anyways, events for today?
- Yay, awesome sleep last night! Nature didn't call until noisy PIG mum awoke me with her daily a-THUMPING around upstairs when she got up; after using the pot :P once I fell straight back asleep coz I knew she'd get noisy again one hour later!
- Sure enough, exactly one hour later, noisy PIG mum went a-THUMPING upstairs and got changed for church; that was my wakeup call to use the pot :P again, after which I spend ten minutes beginning a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*
- Come 7:30am, PIG mum lets herself into my room to hit me with the eye goo, help me exceedingly slightly with the bra strap, the tee (since dearest dad's @ home) and a jumper (since I'm cold) before leaving me to get myself mostly independently kitted, which I comply with after giving myself fifteen more minutes first.
- PIG mum comes back to help with absolutely nothing bar Elf's AFO straps and both laces, before I let her gleefully FORCE :( me to walk over to the bathroom and brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for just one tinkle, coming out when I realise I feel like doing a stinky unspeakable.
- Lol originally PIG mum ordered I get myself a spoon to eat porridge; I went first to the computer and noted that down. Only by then she'd gone upstairs to change and dad was otherwise occupied in the garage; I scooted my chair over to the bench anyway and got a spoon! XD Shh ...
- Breakfast was one bowl of plain porridge with sliced banana added, all my usual drugs :P and one full mug of water. Over breakfast, I spent another ten minutes continuing
my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me
get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind
the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing on my good day
whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him,
despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good
attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase
'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent
life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of
Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets
to live?? *sigh*
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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