Sunday Post 191

Good afternoon! Firstly, today I’ve been hard @ work plodding 1421 steps today; secondly, TWFT topic’s ‘A-Mother-In-Law’s Prayer’ and thirdly, the spam count for the weekend’s twenty-nine but fourthly and way most importantly, I’m still owed THIRTY-FIVE MINUTES online afterwards!!!. Anyways, events for today?

-        For my first game of Bejeweled this arvo, I already lasted 6:09. Now, lemme play one more lasting in between five and six minutes, and I’m content not to play again till toms. XD

-        I used the pot :P once/twice last night and once more around 6:50am when dearest dad came to use the downstairs toilet and awoke me when pulling the door shut. Unfortunately, sleep didn’t come back before PIG mum came to hit me with the eye goo and help me very slightly not only with a bra but also a tee (coz dearest dad hadn’t left for work yet; you can bet your bottom dollar that she won’t help whatsoever when I shower later today) but oh well. Mainly I’m just stressed coz the right side of my idiot head’s still pounding from all the stress awful PIG mum caused me two nights ago. >< *sigh*

-        After getting myself mostly independently kitted, PIG mum came back to help with Elf’s AFO and both laces. I know that’s only coz she doesn’t wanna be late for the Canto service; I’m sure I’ll be tying them myself when I shower later.

That all done, I let her gleefully FORCE L me to walk over to the bathroom to brush teeth (poor Ela). Teeth brushed, I sit over the loo for two tinkles, also leaning fully against the side rail and starting a mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me with the patience, perseverance, strength and endurance I need to get through today with, giving PIG mum all the pleasure, all the satisfaction and just suffering for her whenever she decided that only she can be happy and/or satisfied. It doesn't sound very fair, but she's taught me through her actions, if not through her words, that it's enough she's happy and/or satisfied, and I guess whenever that happens, I've just got to grit my teeth and endure. >< *sigh*

-        After washing and drying Era, I walk myself slowly and safely out to the gobbling :p table for breakfast, rising above the cruel and unfaithful God’s near-overwhelming hatred and not letting Him push me over.

Breakfast was one small half-bowl of All-Bran 9what Dr. Ku calls ‘bird food’ XD0 plus some red dragon fruit! The milk turned pink; how cool~ I also drank one full mug of water, took all my usual drugs :p and spent about ten minutes continuing my mostly silent chat to Percy the saint/angel, asking him please to help me get through today okay. I find it's exceedingly important to constantly remind the cruel and unfaithful God that He has no bearing  on  my good day whatsoever, that I am perfectly capable of having a good day without Him, despite Him and apart from Him, because my good day's dependent on my own good attitude. If only God would remember that ... *sigh* He created the phrase 'live and let live', so why the heck can't He lemme live the free, independent life that I deserve? Okay, fair enough, we all only deserve death because of Him, but why can't He just lemme live the life that nearly everyone else gets to live?? *sigh*

Cheers,

Em. ^^